its a party life out there;

MOVED

2006-12-03T02:37:00.000-08:00

I HAVE MOVED.
BYE

back from tk chalet!

2006-11-30T02:49:00.000-08:00

okay, i'm so so so sorry for not updating for so so so long -.-
HAHA. anyway, erm. i am staying in 3/4 ):

but tessa, rachel, huixin and i promised to have recess together.
NO MATTER WHAT.
i want four of us to be really close next year.
LOL. hurhur.

mrs chia bloody didn't call me.
pig shit lah she.

i have been going training CONSISTENTLY for quite long.
omg, i am so proud of myself. haha.

anyway, i went for tk chalet! <3
it was super damn fun lah!
pardon my singlish-ness.

the whole chalet consisted of endless bitchings, monfort boys, seniors, tanning, bowling and weird coin machine! haha.

highlight was..
WANYUN'S EGOISTIC WAYS AND SIR LEAVING.

went for sir's last training today.
played captain's ball. everything was fine until the part where we were going home.
sigh, i'm gonna miss sir like fcuk.
sorry about the vulgarity, i need to express how much i am gonna miss sir.
i love sir so so so much ):

sigh man.
after that, team tk headed down to pp.
ate lunch.
hang-ed out at coffee bean.
went to macs.
went home.

i have been hanging out with jingying, wanyun, rachel and huang so much!
it seems weird.

i saw charmaine today!
i didnt recognise her.
there was awkwardness between us. ):

I LOVE TEAM TK.
HAVE NO IDEA WHY, BUT I FEEL WE CAN GET INTO NATS TOP 4.
AS LONG AS WE STAY UNITED, IT'S ALL POSSIBLE (:
I LOVE JAZZ, RACH, HUANG AND TESSA SO SO MUCH! <3

i love partnering jazz, no idea why -.-
feel good partnering her i guess.
she is so encouraging.
JAZREEEEEL TAN, WO AI NI.
LOL.

I LOVE TEAM TK! <3

i didnt get my class

2006-11-16T08:19:00.000-08:00

BULLSHIT.
i got my second choice ):

i am going to appeal for class 3/3.
hopefully i can get it.

DISGUSTING

2006-11-12T21:34:00.000-08:00

shivani -> lol, okay. haha, you take care okay (:
april -> we already decided we are going your house. HAHA.
carol -> it was supposed to be sarcastic. lol.
emelia -> YOU! we better go out okay. i haven't seen you for so long ): must must must go out soon k (:
charmaine -> nothing much to talk lah.it's just. read my post later
-.- lol.
js -> yeah, thanks :D

okay, my previous post sounded sadistic uh? lol.
i was super pissed lah. sigh, feel so overshadowed by my sisters ):
ESP weijing. sigh. she is like the BEST. cause she is sensible, smart, pretty. all the best things in the world.

i told my mum that i owed april $9.10.
she say, you better than be like your oldest sister. only borrow never return.
like puh-lease. don't compare me to her okay.
not saying that my oldest sister is best.
i mean, i just hate comparison.
she doesnt realise how much hurt is invovled when comparison comes.

and about me calling my sister bitch, i feel disgusted.
i feel so vulgar.
sigh, weiyi, i'm sorry okay.

and well, yeah. i lied to mummy.
about training, i didnt go taining. but i told her i did.
cause my hand bloody hell hurts okay. ):
and she still wants me to go. how to train -.-

i suck.

i am eating chocolate now.
chocolate makes you happy.
so yeah.
I AM HAPPY :D

actually, i am not depressed lah. i just sound depressed.
and don't try to cheer me up cause i will get more depressed.
LOL.
am i making sense? -.-

BULLSHIT.

2006-11-10T05:20:00.000-08:00

THREE CHEERS FOR ME CAUSE

I'M NOT AS

PERFECT

AS LIN WEIJING.

THREE CHEERS FOR ME CAUSE
I HATE BADMINTON.

THREE CHEERS FOR ME CAUSE

I BLOODY HELL

LIED

TO MY OWN MUM.

THREE CHEERS FOR ME CAUSE

I JUST CALLED MY SISTER A

BITCH.

i wish you could see i'm hurting so bad too.

what happened to me, why am i so disgusting now.

GRUEEEESOME

2006-11-07T02:22:00.000-08:00

my hand hurts :/
mummy wasn't at home.
and since it was raining, me, being the oh-so-nice girl, decided to help mummy to bring in the clothes.

end up, my hand got kiapped by the pole and that thingy.
so so so pain.
end up crying. LOL.
it was such a gruesome sight :/

my flesh came out.
like got a hole.
well sort of. PLUS. that was blood.
yuck.
and i am having difficulty typing. BOO.

it's darn pain.
wondering if i can still play badminton with it.
hahaha.

rachel, it looks damn sick and disgusting lah.
you are so in for it tml.
HAHA.

on the brighter side of things, i am paying back my debts. HAHA.
i paid all the money that i owe from the team.
and my sister :D

only left april, michelle and suzanna.
REMEMBER TO REMIND ME OKAY (:

and after i pay off, i am going to save money :DDDD

dirty babe, you see this shackles, baby i'm your slave.

edit

my mum don't want me to go training.
she wants me to see a doctor.
cause she thinks that it will decompose.

cause all the flesh is exposed to the air. LOL.
but then, i think if i dont go training right, the team will think i pon.
except maybe rachel and a few other lor.

i am caught in a mess.
HOW HOW HOW? ):
what should i do?
see doctor or go training. but i really do wonder how to train ):

/edit

2006-11-04T19:48:00.000-08:00

i wanna study overseas.
i wanna become a great psycologist to help people.
i wanna be a plastic surgeon who help people become prettier.
i wanna study IB abroad.
i wanna study bloody hard and become sucessful in life.
i wanna live in a big house.
i wanna give my parents a good life.
i wanna be a straight A student.
i wanna BLOODY HELL be rich. (not really. i just want a job where you earn alot. -.-)
i wanna have a great job where people go WOW when i tell them my job.

i am filled with inspiration to study hard.
psyched up for next year.

the basic step to be a sort of "confirm" sucessful person is to study overseas.
studying overseas is so much better.
I BET.

BUT HOW TO, WHEN THE IB FEES OVERSEAS ARE..
14 THOUSAND A YEAR.
or even more if i include my allowance and everything.

LOOKING FOR YOU

2006-11-02T07:11:00.000-08:00

DAMN MAN.
i am still looking for you.

haha. lol.
GOING TRAINING TML :D

something tells me that you might be the one.

SICK

2006-11-01T03:57:00.000-08:00

BOOO.
i'm sick.
):

missed two trainings.
SORRY MR WONG.

hopefully, i can go training tml.
(:

I AM TAlKING LIKE A TOAD.
):
now, i am really like a bullfrog.
hahaha.

okay, thats all i guess.
BYE.
and dont worry, ill take care of myself. hahah (:

SHOPPING WITH MICH AND APRIL

2006-10-29T06:16:00.000-08:00

went to heeren with mich and april today! (:
ate billy bombers! <3
super super nice :D
then went shopping! saw joan -.-
hahaha. went from heeren to taka to far east then to tangs plaza.
(:
charm called only when we were going back. hahaha.

i have decided.
i am so buying sunless tan, strawberry wax and pink necklaces when i strike rich. HAAH.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN.

2006-10-28T08:28:00.001-07:00

hey people!
happy halloween! :D

i dressed up as a devil with jingying to sophie and serena's halloween party.
haha. here are some pics.

i think sophie and jy looked DAMN cool. sophie is a corpse bride by the way.

me and soph! (:
we look COOL.

i like serena. friendly girl (: HAAH. lol.

LOL

2006-10-27T02:45:00.000-07:00

yesterday was the last day of school.
no more wanen ):

watched basketball.
after that, went sir's house.
left at 8 pm.
went home, changed, dad brought me to tessa's house.
sleepover at tess' with daph.
slept at 12 plus.

woke up, took a bus.
eat macs breakfast.
went training.

got invited to a HALLOWEEN PARTY :D
then went home.

tml, going to far east plaza's costume shop with jingying (:
intend to go as a beggar. HAHA.
dont know.
see first. haha.
sophie is going as a corpse bride.
SWEEEEET.

thanks for invitng me soph (:
the pics are so gonna come up.
HAHA.

i'm outta here.
I AM EXCITED ABOUT HALLOWEEN.

TRICK OR TREAT? xD

SENTOSA WITH SHIV AND CHARM

2006-10-25T03:22:00.000-07:00

SUZANNA DIDNT COME TODAY.
SU, WHEN YOU COMING WITH US TO SENTOSA HUH HUH HUH?!
haha, suntanning!

i think we three are super open.
we changed on the beach. -.-
of course we covered each other.
haha, but there are so little people on the beach.

WHO CARES.
here are the photos.
super photos cant come up. DAMMIT. lol.
i'll try to upload them again soon (:

charm suddenly reminds me of natalie in this pic. hahah.

okay. i know. LAME PHOTO.

I AM MACHO DUDE.

acting disgusted? ahhaha.

the babes (:

SHE IS FIDDLING WITH MY MY MY IPOD?! LOL -.-

the place we were suntanning at. ahha.

future promoting models? (:

i think she looks real pretty in this pic :D

THANKS FOR CUTTING MY HEAD OFF. hahah!

CRYING OVER SPILT MILK

2006-10-23T22:11:00.000-07:00

i am super upset about my marks okay.
like, super super upset.

my class position and level position SUCKED.
i showed mummy and daddy my report book.
and i started crying like hell. -.-
saying things like,"sorry mummy, i am so disappointed with myself too. i promise to do better next time. please dont be angry with me."
sounds so emo.

mummy and daddy didnt get angry with me.
they told me, i just transferred school. what can they expect?
plus, they think i did my best.
but i know i didnt. told daddy that i know i didnt put in all my effort.
he said not to cry over spilt milk.

mumma and daddee told me that this time, its okay.
but next year, no more excuses.
they told me to study hard too.

sigh, i love my parents.
they dont put pressure on me.
thats why, i wanna try so much harder for them.

i wanted mummy to scold me. so i wouldnt feel that bad.
but all my parents did was hug me. and told me its okay.

i really really love them alot.

anyway, on the brighter side, i am aiming for B7.
biology/chemistry/core geography/elective lit/
a maths/maths/english/chinese/social studies

hopefully, i can get it.
cause, i have already wrote my goals for SEC 3 (:
HAHA.

daddy and mummy wants me to take physics. but noooo.
i suck at that.

guess what i wanna be when i grow up?
A PSYCHOLOGIST OR A PLASTIC SURGEON

2006-10-20T04:19:00.000-07:00

13 oct friday = unlucky?
puh-lease.
20 oct friday is the REAL unlucky day.

SUPER SUPER SCREWED.
so many things happened.
lol, cant be bothered to say.
just that it is bloody screwed.
READ CHARMAINE'S BLOG IF YOU WANNA KNOW.

plus, mr wong called me and ask me to go training!
BULLSHIT.
eeeeeek. you tell me how?

i honestly thank God for such understanding parents and Mrs Taufiq.
(:

i am still pissed.
never mind. there is still other chances to go suntanning and sentosa.

urgh, kill me.
BYEEEEEeee

16/10/06

2006-10-17T00:51:00.000-07:00

got back three of our scripts.
ENGLISH, CHINESE AND SCIENCE.

damn, i failed chinese ):
i got 44/100. D7 LEH. sigh. i think i'll be going to normal chinese next year.
and i'll be taking chinese in JC. BOOOO.

i passed english! (:
i'll be staying in tkg (: i'm sooo elated :D
and i got 55.5/100 -.- HEH. my english compre and everything is darn lousy and i admit it.
hahaha.

as for science, i got 65/100. B3.
not bad lah uh. hahah. really really hope i can get biology as my subject.
and nisha got 90.5/100. SHE IS NUTS RIGHT.

carol and jeannette and some other people, cheer up!

specially for carol;
hey babe, this is your life. live it the way you want it. you shouldnt live your life like how other people wants your life to be. life is NOT about reaching expectations, its about your purpose in life. cheer up girl (: so what if your brothers are smart?
i'm sure you are talented in way yet to be discovered :D
I LOVE YOU (:

charm koh. where you go today uh. hahah. you cant drink milk? lol. then how? >.<
haha, love you guys.
I'M OUTTTT

ANNOUNCEMT

2006-10-12T23:07:00.000-07:00

OKAY, THIS ANNOUNCEMENT GOES OUT CLEARLY TO EVERYONE AND EVERYONE.

THERE IS AN OUTING THIS MONDAY.
ANYONE CAN COME (:

VENUE : SENTOSA [SILOSO BEACH]
TIME : 12.30PM AT HARBOURFRONT MRT
REASON : DUDE, ITS PAST EXAMS. DOES IT NEED A REASON?
WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO: SUNTANNING, PLAY VOLLEYBALL, BONDING GAMES, IT WILL BE FUN LAH OKAY.

HOSTED BY: SHIVANI, CHARMAINE AND WEIHUI.

OKAY, MAYBE ITS JUST ME. CAUSE I'M NOT SURE WHETHER BOTH OF THEM WANT ANOT. SHIVANI DOESNT MIND. BUT CHARMAINE I DONT KNOW WHETHER SHE KNOWS -.-

MORE DETAILS, CONTACT ME!
GET MY HP NO, AND EMAIL FROM SOMEONE LAH.
HAHA. MAYBE WE CAN END IT OFF WITH SOME BBQ? LOL.

BYEEEEEEEEE

CHARMAINE SHOPPING :D

2006-10-12T18:23:00.000-07:00

yesterday went shopping with charmaine! <3
hymf. wonder when will i shop with suzanna and michelle and gina and blah blah blah.

anyway, we met at citylink mall at 1 pm. yeah. hahaha.
charmaine doesnt know what is the control station -.-
anyway, i wore the pumps two days ago and it gave me BLISTERS.
and yesterday i wore high heels. so it hurt even MORE.
but not that bad lah. i still survived! (:

so, we walked to marina square and started shopping!
charmaine bought:

eyeliner from theFACEshop - $10.90
top from cbase - $25.00
bottom from cbase - $39.00
top from U2 - $10! [cause 2 for $20! i bought one with her! haha.]
top from inbase - $24.00

I THINKKKKK. i should be all correct. this is just to prove how good my memory is :DDD
LOLlipop. hahaha. i bought:

top from U2 - $10 (:
necklace from TOMATOcan - $13.90 [charmaine lent me $8 :D nice girlieee]
liquid eyeliner from theFACEshop - $18.90 i thinkkk. [i think i'm probably never ever gonna use this.]
STRAWBERRY lip balm from theFACEshop - $10.90 [dude, it smells nice. i applied it on my sister lips and she said they looked KISSABLE -.-]
soothing after sun gel from theFACEshop - $11.90

yeah thats all.OH YAR.
charmaine bought me a cushion/pillow for my birthday! (: hahaha.
i like it alot! :D black colour with PURPLE dolphin (:
anyway, went to sakae shushi to eat.
eat until wanna die liao. so full -.-
but its money well spent. we talked alot what.

gosh, so many people thought we looked 18 years old.
can watch NC16 shows liao (:
LOL. hahaha.

sigh, do i really look old? hahaa.
anyway, SHIVANI woke me up today! boooo.
i was having my BEAUTY sleep then she called me at 9am in the morning.
EEEEEEK. ahhahaha.
shivani, charmaine and i are going to sentosa later on.
anyone wanna come? (:

SHOPPINGGGGGGG WITH APRIL(:

2006-10-11T07:16:00.000-07:00

went shopping with april! <3
went to eat the hokkien mee at wisma atria :D
we went to sooo many malls can.
walk until tired. we so funny lah.
we tried to persevere.
to no avail -.- ahaha. the pumps were killing me man.
i saw this tanning lotion. dont need to go into the sun. just put on your skin can liao.
hahahha. but never buy. (:

april bought a pair of shorts when i was cutting my hair :D
never see how she looked -.-
oh yes. when i was about to die (from walking!), she offered to help me carry the bag i bought even though she was about to die too!
so sweet right. (:

after she go, mummy wanted to come and meet me.
but never in the end. booo ):
haha, then i shopped myself -.-
BOUGHT MORE THINGS.
ahahhaha!

this are the things i bought :

top from pull and bear - $18.95
denim skirt from 77th street, and no, its not the twitty kind. haha - $36.90
bag from pinkindustrie - $21 after 50% discount :D
2 necklaces and 1 pair of earrings - $36.55 after 15 discount

and yes april. i bought those after you left. ahhaa. i know i'm a spendthrift. -.- and the top from pull and bear isnt the one i tried charmaine. ahahha.
damn, this sounds so little. but i actually spent so much lah.
alamak. it is sooo expensive. boooo ):

other things i spent on :

haircut - $20
food - 6.10

nothing else i think.ahahha. tml going ddr i think. not sure :D
okay, i think thats all.
and there wont be any photos. cause i couldnt find the camera -.-

okay, thats all. TATA!(:

VIVOCITY

2006-10-10T04:19:00.000-07:00

dresses.
my new craze. haha.

anyway, shivani, charmaine and i went to vivocity after school today.
IT ROCKED.
and we are self-proclaimed high class people. haha.
well, maybe i'm not. shivani says i drink tea like kopi tiam tea -.- lol.

tml i am going shopping with april. (:
WHOOOT.

as for thursday, i dont know leh.
wanna go suntanning, but maybe go east coast watch them DDR lor.

haha. WHEN IS SUNTANNING SESSION? ):
charmaine is going to admire me cause i will dare to wear my bikini.
WAHAHAHAHAHA.
whatever -.-

BYEEE PEOPLE.
i'll put up the photos i took tml on friday. i THINK.

EXAMS OVER

2006-10-09T06:43:00.000-07:00

oh YES.
tml is the last day of exams.
WHOOOOOT.
feel like going suntanning or wild wild wet straight away from exams tml.
i'm gonna be freeeeeee.
2 months of holiday. bullshit man.
this is way cool.
man, i am excited. everybody who has MEP exams, good luck! (:

to everyone who showed me concern:
thanks alot, i really appreciate and love you guys :D

to yuting, SPECIALLY:
dont know whether you read my blog. but well, cheer up okay! (:

i'm only 15 hours away from freedom :D
YEAH MAN.
i'm gonna continue studying geog now. haah.
OUT

PITY

2006-10-05T22:51:00.000-07:00

dont pity me.
and dont worry, i dont have sucidal thoughts.
its just that ever since that accident, i just kept wondering, what if i died.

UPSET.

2006-10-05T22:28:00.000-07:00

I WAS UPSET YESTERDAY.
i wasn't angry with weiyi at all.
just felt worthless and hurt.
her friends seem to be so much important than me.

suddenly, no one seem to love me anymore.
i look back to the beginning. when i was young.
what happened.

daddy has been so caught up with work. but i still feel his love (:
mummy, i dont know. its just not like last time anymore.
dajie, there was nothing since the beginning.
erjie has weifeng and everything.
weiyi has more important things. like God, church friends, friends, her duty, springfield. we lost it during the way.

i cant believe i'm crying now. i'm such a weak girl.
quarrelled with weiyi yesterday.
then she couldnt bother about me anymore and went to sleep.
she got so fed up with irritating me i guess.
cried. and thought, recently i was using those horrible words at my sisters.
always flaring up. why am i doing that.
was i trying to get attention? i dont know.

went to a point when i was primary one.
erjie and weiyi and mummy were all fussing over me. taking care of me.
even thought of emily, violet and kent too.
now, they just arent there anymore.
i feel lonely all of a sudden. i feel like crying everything out.
but i have no one to cry to.
yesterday, i couldnt get to sleep cause i was crying kind of badly.
wanted to cry things out and tell mummy everything.
walked to get tissue first. she scolded me.
say," why you quarrel with weiyi. tml exams already still cry. go sleep la."
what to do. got the tissue box and go to my room lor.

went to my room, thought, what if i die.
would some people cry?
thought what mingmin said during tuition.
cried even harder. i really love emelia lim mingmin ALOT.
she has been always there for me.
thought of christel suddenly.
i really love her. she feels lonely. but nobody bothers about her.
but, i want to be there for her.
then i thought, if i died, who will be there for christel if one day christel ever need a shoulder to cry on?
then cried even harder.
thought of so many so many people. and how much i love them.

i cant continue already. my eyes are already pain from crying.
typing some more will probably make my bawl like a baby.'

thanks mingmin for trying to cheer me up. (:

compare our past to our present;
it feels like hope dont exist anymore.

LATEST OBSESSIONS

2006-10-02T03:10:00.000-07:00

GUESS WHAT.
I HAVE NEW CRAZY OBSESSIONS :D

shall list them later. i have been listing alot of things eh?
haha, anyway, i finally found out what is a Brazilian Wax.
jeannette told me. and i checked the web. LOL.
it seems really really pain. SCARY ):
its just one last week before the exams are over. WHEEEEEEEE (:

anyone wants to eat marché?
lol. but it is bloody bloody expensive.
i think i tell mummy saying like i'm sec 2 already and the class are going to be divided and everything. and ask her to give me $20?
then the rest i'll pay ):

by the time exams are over, the most i can come up with for shopping is $100 ):
unless mummy give me my $150 -.-
this is so sad. i have so many plans with april for shopping. yet i am short of cash.
then i was supposed to go shopping with jingying, suzanna and charmaine too.
BOOOOOO ):
worst comes to worst , i'll borrow money from mummy.
this is saddening. -.-

ANYWAY, WHY AM I TALKING ABOUT SHOPPING WHEN THE EXAMS AREN'T EVEN OVER? LOL.

this is way weird. but i feel like going shopping with natalie and gina too. haha.
now for my obsessions.HAH.

THE BODY SHOP. WHOOOOT.
tomatoCAN. THE BAGS.
WAXING. lol. -.- i want to go waxing. it feels so fun :D
still shopping! (:
BIKINIS. they look CUTE. lol.
PASTAMANIA. i like the strawberry soda and the creamy thingy charmaine ate that day.
my hair.this sounds super ego. but, well. lol. i'm weird. -.-
PERFUMES! (:

yeah. that's all i guess. HAHA. booo me.
i forgot to bring the stupid form for the basketball thingy. i'm sorry everyone.
FORGIVE ME PLEASE? (:

JOHN TUCKER MUST DIEEEEEEEE

2006-09-30T05:10:00.000-07:00

didnt go cell today.

went to suntec city with charmaine to watch john tucker must die. wanted to study. but well -.-
we ate pastamania. SINFUL.
hahaha! (:
she ate the dont know what creamy thingy while i ate dont know what marinaria or whatever.
both of us got so sick of our dishes that we swopped. haha.
we ordered the strawberry italian soda. SO BEEEEEG.
i think its worth it for $3 :/
wanted to take picture one lor.
but i forgot. so aiyah, forget it.

anyway, john tucker is HOT.
hotter than hyun-bin lah. hahaha.

charmaine had to leave straightaway after the movie. haha.
sent her off and did lonely window-shopping.
BOOOOOOOOOO ):
well, its okay. i forgive you CHARMAINE.

hahaha! oh yeah, mummy thought i was going out with a guy cause i looked pretty :D
thats what she said. haha!
my mummy has a very imaginative mind. LOL.

anyway, back to shopping.
walked from suntec to citylink to marina back to citylink then suntec -.-
MY STRONG ENDURING LEGS.
applied for the body shop membership card!
and i got my long wanted strawberry showering gel from the body shop. but it cost $10.
i think it was a good deal anyway (:

saw tomato can SALE.
omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg.
the bag so nice. I WANTED TO BUY.
but sigh, deprived cause lack of $$$.
i decided, i still wanna shop at the body shop.
hahah. plus i want my nike bottle! so many things but so little $$$.
i want to save $$$. or work. then i can have so much $$$.
then i can go shopping! hahaha.

i told daddy about the showering gel.
then he keep saying i also think about spending.
ahahaha. daddy is getting super lame!
haha. he say some lame stuff, then nobody laugh.
then he laugh to himself -.-
then weiyi and i will be like DIAO.
lol. i told daddy to use the strawberry gel thingy.
then he can smell like strawberry.
then he laugh super loudly in the car.
SO DIAO -.-
hahahaha. my parents are funny people.
daddy say mummy not vain.
then mummy say she is naturally BOOOO-TI-FUL.
lol. my family are all funny people.
WAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.
i am getting the infectious lame-ness disease.
hahah. i <3 my family.
check this out!
super cool. HAHA! okay done.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

SLIMMING

2006-09-27T06:12:00.000-07:00

I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT.
haha.
let's seeeeee.

CURRENT
HEIGHT:165cm
WEIGHT:(i am still not confident to actually say it out yet -.-) 5_.4 kg.

DREAM
HEIGHT:169cm
WEIGHT:54kg? SEE FIRST LAH.

i want nicer curves! HAHA. lol. omg. what if boys are reading my blog -.- it will be so embarrassing. aiyah, who cares. its the same as they wanting muscles! HAH.
13 more days till EOYs are over. suntanning, anyone? (:

anyway, back to the main point. hahah. there's so many things that i want! i shall list only things that really concern my body!

I WANT:

more bras! really, i think i have really little of them. ahhaa. i have got more sports bra than normal bra lah can -.-
topshop panties and boxers. THEY ARE SOOOO CUTE.
to be slimmer! (:
smaller thighs. honestly, my thighs are sooo bloody big and i cant take it. HAAH.
less tummy fats? haha. i bet CHARMAINE is laughing now. -.-
get rid of my baby fats! okay, maybe not all. but well at least half of it! CHARMAINE is laughing again, i think.
taller! oh yeah baby. hahah. i wanna be as tall as WEIJING. which is like 170 cm.
my hair to grow again. its getting so untidy. and i want to tie it ):
more earholes. boo that woman who re-pierced my second earhole. i want four on my right, and 3 on my left :D
lose inches! (: everywhere i guess.
NICER TEETH. honestly, i am really sick of my ugly unstraight teeth. i cant wait until i am 16 years old. i do my surgery then put my braces. YAY! (: then EMELIA will stop suan-ing me. ahah.
pimple freeeee! smooth and hydrated complexion. (:
thread my eyebrow? i dont know. i think i'll do it with EMELIA (:
permanent hair removal also known as waxing! -.- omg. i cant wait for this. i think i will do this with APRIL :D
nice smooth and supple hands. haha. i am trying to make this list really really long. (:
proper DOUBLE-EYELIDED eyes. hahah.
BEAUTIFUL NAILS. that's gonna be a little hard. ahha. have to stay away from the nail clipper for quite a long while. ahha.
LASTLY, nicer and more obvious curves. ahhaha.

i think that's all leh. sounds a bit bimbotic. hahah. but, aiyah. for fun mah. (: okay, that's all.
to any boy who read this:
dont be freaked out. at least i thought you how a girl thinks :D
TATA ! (:

i grew!

2006-09-22T19:55:00.000-07:00

omgomgomg.
i grew! i am taller than mama now!
mama -> 165cm
means than i should be 166 cm right :D
since i wanna be at least 169 cm, its only 3 more cm.
wheeeeeeeeeeee!
i love daddy's genes.
daddy -> 185cm liddat.
at whoooot. i lost another kg! :D
this is so shiok.

oh, i had a near death experience.
read THIS.
haha. its only 6 more days to the start of EOYs.

29 sept - english paper 1 & 2 (NERVE-WRECKING PAPER, I SUCK AT COMPRE)
4 oct - SCIENCE! -.- (HAVENT STUDY FINISH EVERYTHING YET)
5 oct - HMT paper 1 & history (CHINESE COMPO? DIE LAH. HISTORY, THE FACTS I HAVENT EVEN MEMORISE THE FACTS CAN.)
6 oct - mathematics paper 1 & 2 (I THINK I AM READY FOR THIS -.-)
9 oct - literature (HAHA. I READ FINISH ANIMAL FARM ALREADY :D)
10 oct - HMT paper 2 & geography (HMT THING CANNOT STUDY LAH. GEOG, HAVENT FINISH STUDYING)

okay, so how? sigh. mug like hell -.-
i am turning BIMBOTIC.
yeah. i mean seriously. i cant get shopping out of my head.
lol. money-minded me.
I MUST GET RID OF IT.
but well, its okay to lust for things you want right.
like.
THAT STRAWBERRY SHOWERING GEL!
ahhahaha. lol.
random.
wont be posting for quite a while i think.
ILL BE STUDYING :D
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

CAM WHORE BABY!

2006-09-15T08:40:00.000-07:00

hey people!
going serene/jeanette's concert tml.
my darlings who are going. camwhore with me pretty please?
hahaha.
i like my pics to be retarded! (:
oh God. 14 days to EOYs.
i have to mug. not going training until after my EOYs.
yeah. anyone wanna study with me after school? (:

audrey!
your keys are still with me. how? ):

ill update my pics! i promise.
or maybe i wont if stupid blogger doesnt let me.
BOOOO BLOGGER ):
SOMEONE got into my account and added some "cute" guys.
cute to someone like HER.
honestly, i think they are just normal guys.
hahhaa. -.-
should i wear really casual, semi-formal or formal tml?
lol. i think semi-formal.
but i will probably wear causual.
HAHA! (:
going with april and gina.

charmaine and suzanna!
hey girls. if i ever said any one mean thing to you, i dont mean it okay. i am sorry for whatever i said.

anyone,
if i were mean to you, i think i dont mean it. unless i dont like you. yeah, to the people i dont exactly like, you know who you are -.- hahha.

words hurt.

i need to save money to go shopping with jingying at end of e year! oh dear.
next year i have a major shopping trip with mingmin too!
save money.
oh damn. i am addicted to shopping.
kill me.
WHY CANT I GET ADDICTED TO STUDYING INSTEAD.
):

anyone wanna go out after the concert? i really dont feel like going home straight.
feel like heading to the beach or have some supper. sigh.
everyone is like.
EOYs coming. cant go out. -.-
or like, better stay at home and study.
at least relax at times lah -.-
macs supper sounds good. hahaha.
SEE YOU PEOPLE!

PICS UP ON..
TUESDAY? (:

this post doesnt make any sense at all -.-
i dont even get it myself.

UPSET.

2006-09-06T20:56:00.000-07:00

this whole thing is disturbing me alot.
who is telling the truth and who is lying to me.
urgh, its getting on my nerves.
i found out about the things he said yesterday (and yes, i did cry about. its freaking mean okay), lost in my first round (it's okay actually, jaz and i did try our best) and my team has some problem.
eeeeeek.
i need to go shopping to destress.
-.-
sigh, still the same, good luck to some people.

JY and SHARM:
hey jiayou okay. i know you two can do it! thrash them upside down! HAHAA. (: all the way!
BT:
hey, cheer up the about the "thing" lah. and jiayou for your match as well! (: take care dude.
JH:
today is your day. smash smash smash! dont care about your string lah. break then break lor. good luck! you and masa can do it.

thats all. you know what. i still choose to believe he didnt say those things. i know i am stupid.
TELL ME ABOUT IT.

upsetting;

2006-09-05T21:12:00.000-07:00

i feel really upset.
i didnt know oyu were this type of person.
say nice things in front of me, say bad things behind my back.
no wonder _______ broke up with you.
such a bastard.

i feel upset over small things now.
poeple, dont worry.
i'm fine. i'm tough.
i can take it. fear not (:

oh such a vunerable position.

SHOPPINGGG

2006-08-31T22:46:00.000-07:00

muahahaha.
i'm going shopping with 500 bucks !
WHOOOOOOOOT.
i'll be back to blog later.
see you later darlingg.

p.s: DONT BE JEALOUS.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

TEACHER'S DAY.

2006-08-31T18:30:00.000-07:00

WOKE UP AT 5.30 AM YESTERDAY.
omg. haha. had to be mrs kong at 6.45 in school what. haha.
but then she want us to go so early but then she talk so little.
waste my time lorrr.
haha. stomp rocked ! (:
congrats su :D happy uhh. they didnt say the results ! -.=
i like 2/7 performance. NICE.
the idol thingy. super funnehhhhh :DDDD
aces day was fun i guess.
okay. maybe except for the school pants part )):
charmaine didnt come ! then never perform stomp. -.=
CHARMAINE KOH. YOU AHHHHHHHHH.
haha. lol. oh yeah. you realize something.
its not charmaine toh anymore ! (:
we said the school cheer at the end of the whole thing.
i think tkgs rocks alot alot. i love tk :D
i am so glad i came out of sports school. because tkgs is totally my school.
with people like me of course :D
omg. tkg rocks like hell man.

okay. after school, i took the same bus as preaw and jessie to tampines ! (:
preaw and i were going backto our primary schools.
haha. met up with noriko !
LOVEEEEEE !
best friends dont tell each other that they are best friends. they just know.
haha ! (: i got reminded of this proverb or whatever you call it from mingmin's blog.
haha. jiehui, russell, kailiang, noriko and i walked to tm.
jiehui and i were competing who knows more people ! HAHA.
i think she won ):
tm not my territory what. ahha.
we ate sakae sushi (:
some of the others went to eat yoshinoya.
haha. noriko and i went WINDOW-SHOPPING ):
man, i saw so many things that i like.
SO, I AM GOING SHOPPING TODAY ! :D

and one last thing, I GOT A ROSEEE YESTERDAY !
thanks for the rose (: I LOVE IT :D

i'm outta here people. TATA ! (:

didn't go school -.=

2006-08-24T15:54:00.000-07:00

okay. i didnt go school today.
woke up at 0630 and violet and uncle were screaming for me at the door.
told them to go first and said weijing will fetch me later.
end up, she say dont go school.
LOL. haha.
so yeah. im gonna go back to sleep now.
TATA :D

p.s : charm, dont be jealous. ahha.

sigh. and its only day 1 without mummy ):

/edit

haha. i'm back. just thinking about stupid mr darren (he is not the darren that some other girls are going gaga over. he is sec 4 -.=)
-.=
he searched me up on friendster. and hell, i dont know how he got my number.
WAY FREAKY.
but well, i guess its okay. since he is pretty much a GREAT guy.
haha.
hmmm. feel as though i never tell my BESTYS' anything. haha.
lol. that's funny. i think i should address an issue.

GUYS AND GIRLS WHO ARE SOOO DESPO
THAT THEY ACTUALLY ALWAYS ASK FOR PEOPLE'S NUMBER

i dont think thats very nice.
what the girl/guy gets sooo embarrassed that they actually blushed?
urgh. i dont know.

honestly, i dont know what i am doing.
i guess i do look better after cutting my hair -.=
i'm just sick of desperates.
yesterday, it happened again. TWICE.
in mph. nobody knows what happened.
just freaking pissed that i actually gave.
no because i wanted to.
but because that person took ______ from the table and called _______, so that he will get ________.
plus, that idiot keyed ________ inside _________.
yuck.
and the other one was quite okay.
didnt give. but well, he is a nice guy unlike _______.
what's with me now -.=
i dont like it ):

hey.
what do i do now. sigh. so stressful lorr. thanks for listening to me talk the whole night. even though we just became friends, felt as though i could tell you everything already :D thanks dude for your piggy/birdie joke. lol. you are such a toot for a such mature looking person. HAHA. well, talk to you again next time :D i am glad i met you (:

fat thighs and rounded nose, i will tell you all next time when i see you okay :D i promise.
and erm.
FAT THIGHS AND ROUNDED NOSE IS A SECRET NICK FOR WHO YOU ARE.
COOOOOL RIGHTTTT :D

./edit

/ waiting for the super slow sister

2006-08-24T00:02:00.000-07:00

YO people :D
currently at Pacific Coffee Company.
using the computer. haha. gosh.
had IAP today. i totally love ELVIS.
cutie pie (: he is like super active and straightforward.
haha. plus, he aint shy too ! :D
i'm sure that when he grows up, many girls are so going to fall absolutely in love with him.
(:
man, i am having like totally weird dreams this few days.
HAHA. super weird.
WHOOOOOT !
i feel as though i have been blogging super often la :D
april, you are definitely HAPPY righttttt.
haha (:
have to stop using soon.
):
hahhaa. owell.
WEIYI IS COMING SOON :D
okay. gotta go :D
LATERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

hakuna matata
what a wonderful phrase

FUNNY DAY :D

2006-08-21T04:58:00.000-07:00

HELLO PEOPLE ! (:
i am like blogging like only a few days after my last post.
to stop April from complaining, i have to update. HAHA.
today's school was absolutely BORING.
didn't learn anything in school today :/
oh yes. after school, april, charm and me went YOSHI :D
april told me that in the morning. sometimes we should lok into the mirror and say, "Ilook pretty/wonderful/cute today."
yeah. so, as spastic as i am, I DID THAT ON THE SPOT (jokingly, of course).
after i finished, a woman came and "ewww" at me ):
that spoiled my day. and the worst thing was that, that woman was so fugly and fat.
okay. i feel mean saying her like that. but whatever.
i was really sad okay ! (:
but well, i forgive her :D
she is probably just really jealous of skinny people.
not saying that i am skinny but well, i am skinny compared to her :/
then we went to YOSHI and eat.
charm borrowed $$$ from april cause she was broke. AWW. haha.
oh. we talked about which parts of our body we liked most.
CHARM SAID SHE LIKES HER ________.
it was really funny okay. haha.
april said she likes her ________.
funny, but not funny as charm i guess. haha.
oh yeah. had a great time at yoshi then went home.
OMG. on bus 15, this guy asked for my _________.
and i actually BLUSHED -.=

this is the scene:

GUY: hey, wanna be ________? wanna exchange ________?
ME: ermm. no. not interested. ( felt kind of flustered. -.- )
GUY: why not. i am such a _________________?
ME: haha. ( really wanted to burst out laughing. freaking funny you see. but it was kind of like in a awkward situation. so laughing isnt exactly appropriate. HAHA)

YEAH. so it was like that. didnt gve, of course. ahah. FUNNY DAY :D
i love april and charm :D
FUNNY SKINNY MAYPOLES :D

I LOVE YOU GUYS;

2006-08-15T07:19:00.000-07:00

hey people. its been a long long time since i post. just wanna give a shout out to some people whom i am kind of worried about (: I LOVE YOU GUYS :D

SUZANNA
hey girl. everything will be fine yeah. as i've said, this is part of growing up. and the thing is, we were growing through this tough period at the same time. you just got to help your mum around abit (: i am sure that you really love your family alot. JUST LIKE ME. or else, you wouldnt have gotten so sad over it rightt. so yeah. smile ! (:
WE ARE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER BABE !
i love you and that's a reason for you to be smiling :D
haha. i still remember that you are my deputy toilet union manger.MUAHAHAH.

CAROL
haha. you ah. always caring about other people when you yourself aren't feeling good. about your studies, i'm sure your efforts will pay off one day ! haha. just keep on trying (: and about your dad, well, he will understand one day. you know, the parent who is working tends to be unable to understand us because they are like working their life and waya and probably is too tired physically and emotionally to actually try and understand us. plus, the age gap. haha.
CONTINUE STUDYING HARD YEAH.
WHO KNOWS, YOU MIGHT BE JUST THE ONE SCORING 6 A1s FOR O LEVELS (:
jiayou girl. i know you can do it :D

APRIL
EH. you did quite well for maths okay. i did like shit. so disappointing. ahha. well, be proud of your marks. maybe you didnt do that well this time, but i am sure you will definitely do much much better next time okay ! (: like totally, with my encouragment and support, how can you not do well? HAHA. lol.
CEO OF TOILET UNION, I LOVE YOU !
SCHOOL DAYS WOULD BE SUCH A BORE WITHOUT YOU WITH ME :D

JEANETTE
hoi. your maths rightt. its okay wan lah. mrs pang could have been right or wrong. i dont know. but what matters most is that you dont give up yeah. i know you will do just fine for the end-of-the-year examinations. lets work hard for maths together okay :D
WE CAN DO IT !(:

hmm.thats about all i guess. oh yes.

CLAIRE
you didnt do anything wrong for maths. the teacher just asked you to pass the message only what. its not your fault. if anyone blames you again, tell me. i will DEAL WITH THEM SEVERELY. haha. yeah.
cheer up girl (:
it ain't your fault at all (:

YUPPP. THATS ALL. dont ask me why i didnt mention charm. i think she is currently still doing fine :D at least i think so. haha.kk. tata people. LOVE ! <3

Past Poems

2006-07-04T05:58:00.000-07:00

DEPRESSIVE MOOD

Rejection; dejection
The thing that happens to teens,
To care to love,
Is too mature to be.

The promise to care,
The will to live,
The drive to sacrifice
For a broken heart.

Jealousy and oppression,
Despondent and depression,
Hurting and frustration
Are feelings of affection?

So listen to me’
And heed my advice.
To love to care,
Its hard to fathom.

O HOW MUCH I LOVE THEE?

How do I love thee? I count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! And, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.
_________________________________________________

i did this two poems last year. I CAN BE A POET :D
but well, its like portraying my feelings for last year i guess.
MY EYES HURT :/

FEELING EMOTIONAL.

2006-07-03T03:05:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, on the way to church, I cried. I was thinking, what if I lose mummy one day. I felt so afraid of losing her. Then I thought. What's more if I lose Daddy above? How would my life be? Probably screwed up I guess. Sigh. I love God. I do I do. Its so hard to describe what He means to me. He is just so so so important. I am just so thankful for Him. What He did at calvary i'll never forget.

WEIRD STUFF.

2006-06-20T20:41:00.000-07:00

Message:
GIRLS FILL OUT THE TOP
GUYS FILL OUT THE BOTTOM
-------------------------------------------------------------------------
About guys,Turned ON, OFF or DM (Doesn't matter) :

Is taller than you: OF COURSE. DUH. -.-"
Is shorter than you: TOTALLY OFF MAN.
Wears braces: DEPENDS :D I THINK GUY WHO WAER BRACES ARE CUTE THOUGH.
Dresses Preppy: DON'T CARE.
Dresses Ghetto: DON'T CARE.
Dresses Gothic: DON'T CARE.
Has blue eyes: DON'T MIND :D
Has green eyes: DON'T MIND :D
Has hazel eyes: TOTALLY ON (:
Brown eyes: YES !
Drinks alcohol: WINE NOT BEER O.o
Wears glasses: DEPENDS LA UH.
Smokes: OFF OFF OFF ! EEEEE.
Plays sports: A BONUS ! :D
Smiles a lot: YES PLEASE ! SWEET !
Calls you just to say Hi: ON MAN !
Compliments you: WELL. I GUESS SO.
Likes to talk: HAHA. BUT LISTENS TO ME AS WELL LA.
Shy and quiet: ERM. DEPENDS LA.
Good dancer: NO. GAY AH? -.-"
Wears jewelry: THE COOL COOL MAN KIND LA.
Smiles when you walk in the room: YES ! ON ! HOT AH !
Has brown hair: DON'T MIND. I WANT NATURAL ONE. NOT DYE WAN HOR.
Has Black hair: ANYTHING (:
Has blonde hair: DON'T MIND. REAL BLONDE HAIR HOR.
Has red hair: NO. OFF. IT'S DISGUSTING.
Makeup: NAH.UNLESS IT LOOKS NICE. LIGHT MAKE-UP ONLY.
Can make you laugh at any given moment: SUPER ON CAN.
Loyal: OF COURSE !
Laid back: DEPENDS ON CIRCUMSTANCES LOR.
Plays guitar: ANOTHER BONUS !
Plays piano: DON'T MIND ! I THINK IT'S HOT :D
Plays drums: ANYTHING (:
Sing: ERM.I DON'T KNOW.
he's buff (muscles): A BIT CAN LIAO. LATER SO BIG SO TURN OFF.
Easily jealous: NAH.
Doesn't eat meat: OFF LOR. YUCK.
has a tattoo: OFF.
has a lip ring: OFF.
tongue ring: OFF.
is of a different religion: DAMMIT. OFF.
puts CLOSE friends before you: ERM. DEPENDS. BUT IN GIVEN SITUATION. OFF. HAHA.

______________________________________
I SHALL DO THIS PART ! AHAHAHHAAHAH. IT'S SOOOO FUN :D
About girls:Turned ON, OFF or DC:

dresses like a grandma:HUH. NO.
plays musical instrument:SO CLASSICAL. NO.
sporty:BONUS?
is shorter than you:DUH LA. WIHCH UY WILL LIKE GIRLS TALLER THAN THEM -.-"
same height as you:CAN LA.
is taller than you:NO.
is bigger sized than you:NO.
has chapped lips:???
has green eyes:DEPENDS.
has blue eyes:DEPENDS.
has brown eyes:DEPENDS.
has long hair:YES.
has med. hair:YES.
has short hair:YES.
drinks alcohol:NO. WINE LOR.
smokes cigs:NOPE.
lame in a cute way:HAHA. YES !
wears glasses:DEPENDS.
has blonde hair:DEPENDS.
has brown hair:DEPENDS.
has black hair:DEPENDS.
has red hair:DISGUSTING/
smiles:YES !
calls you just to say hi: YES !
creative:DEPENDS.
compliments you:DEPENDS.
shaves her legs:ERM. NO COMMENTS LA.
wears jewelry:DEPENDS.
has bigger feet than you:NO? -.-"
as smaller feet than you:HAHA. YEAH.
smiles when you walk into the room:YES.
belly piercings:NOPE.
virgin:YES DUH.
laid back:DEPENDS.
doesn't party:NO WAY.
likes to party:BONUS !
wants to party:YES/
laughs a lot:YUPP :D
giggles:DEPENDS.
snorts:NO WAY.
pierced ears:YUPP :D
pierced anything else:NOPE.
tattoos:NO.
honest and open:YEAH.
is of a different religion:NOPE.
puts CLOSE friends before you:NOPE
petty:NOPE.

IT'S WEIRD DOING THE GUYS. BUT IT'S STILL FUN :D
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
People who are gonna do this :
NATALIE :D
AUDREY :D
EMELIA :D
WEIYI :D
CHRISTEL :D
TESSA :D
EMILY :D
DAPHNE :D

I HATE EMELIA LIM MINGMIN.

2006-06-02T01:09:00.000-07:00

I HATE EMELIA.
I NEARLY FINISHED MY FREAKING DUMB QUEST AND SHE CAME IN AND SAID.

"LET ME TRY LEHH."

OMG. THE STUPID ME LET HER.
WHERE AM I NOW.
THE BEGINNING. AGAIN.
OH GOD.
HELP ME.

BEEEEGEST DECISION !!!! :D

2006-05-13T06:28:00.000-07:00

YOYOYOYO :D
had training today. OMGOSH.
so tough. can die -.-
first 2.4 run. then so many matches. CAN DIEEEE.
and i changed shirt twice during training.
AND I AM STRESSING THAT BOTH ARE DRIPPING WET. -.-
anyways. the highlight - CELL !
yeah. singing the song "for You alone"
started crying =.-

indeed Lord.
You are the one.
You are the one who died for me.
You are the one who gave up all the riches in heaven to come for me.
You are the one who took all the humiliation and torture for me.
You are the one who wore the crown of thorns for me.
You are the one who was crucified for me.

Thank You Lord.
Yes, You alone deserve all glory and all the praise.

GUESS WHAT.
i made the biggest decision in my life.
FOLLOWING JESUS ! :D
i am gonna get BAPTISED.

SATAN.
if you are reading this, it's time you get out of my life. i am proclaiming that i am God's soldier. you better be scared of me because i have Jesus' blood over me. try as you might, but cornerstone and all of God's army is going to truimph over you. you put me down, get me down, whatever. i am gonna bounce back. twice as strong as before. you hurt my family, i am gonna hurt you thrice as hard. i am ready for it. all the hardship. crossing the red sea requires a price. and thats the hardship that you are going to put into my life. IM READY. come on and try. I WONT LET MYSELF TO SUCCUMB TO YOU ANYMORE.

Why
Nicole Nordeman

We rode into town the other day
Just me and my daddy
He said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide

We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man that my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes

So I said daddy why are they screaming
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts him more then he shows
Daddy please can't you do something?
He looks as though he's gonna cry
You said he was stronger then all of those guys
Daddy please tell me why?
Why does everyone want him to die?

Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide
So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross

And it said father why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my clothes?
This crown of thorns hurts me more then it shows
Father please can't you do something?
I know that you must hear my cry
I thought I could handle a cross of this size
Father remind me why?
Why does everyone want me to die?
When will I understand why?

My precious son
I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own
Jesus this hurts me much more then you know
But this dark hourI must do nothing
Though I've heard your unbearable cries
The power in your blood
Destroys all of the lies
Soon you'll see past their unmerciful lies
Look there below
See the childTrembling by her father's side
Now I can tell you why
She is why you must die

____________________________________________________

Yes indeed. He loves us. Jesus,I love You too :D
let not this distractions take me away from You anymore.

UPDATE.

2006-05-08T03:15:00.000-07:00

WENT TO SENTOSA ALONG LONG TIME AGO. DECIDED TO UPDATE TODAY. AGHAHAHA. BETTER ENJOY. CAUSE IT TOOK ME VERY VERY LONG OKAYYYYYY ((: HAHAHAA. WO AI MYSLEF!!! ((: BUT WELL. WISHED SUZANNA CAME )):

CHARM SLEEPIN :DDDD

jace zilian -.-

they all two zilian again -.-

CAHRM SLEEPIN AGAINN :DDDD

nicenice (:

WE ARE SOGONNA FALL -.- and actually. we did -.-

i harttx `euu -.- hahahaha.

OMH. so freaking nice can.

simply US. charm. nana. hui. jace (:

charmstole the mat away from me ! )):

pink sky taken through my sunglasses lense.

US AGAIN :DD

charm is so nice to take a pic for other people. -.-

the sun is coming! WHOOT. suntan!

or is it setting -.-

another artistic photo by MOI.

JACE HUI CHARM.

VERDICT: THE SUN IS COMING OUT!

SENTOSA!!

THEM TRYING TO LOOK SPASTIC.

eeeeewww. charmaine. conduct yourself properily like a lady! WHERE IS YOUR GRACIOUSNESSS? 0.o

dunno what does guys were doing. but i am sure what they were doing IS STUPID.

trying to jump. but.. WELL. FAIL LAAAA.

STUPID WIND BLOW THE HAIRINTO MY FACE! @#$^*%*%#$#

you know why they laugh? cause they dunno how to look spastic -.-

VICTORY SIGN! TWISTTTT.

the bridge that nearly killed me -.-

me and HER.i look SPASTIC.

simply us. not really cant su aint here )):

SHINY WATER EH? :D

UA AGAIN ((:

MURKY WATER. what lies beneath it?

i think they are super tired after walking so much.

we walked this LONGGGGGG path like 4 times CAN? OMGGG.

my dear CHARMAINE (:

this very artistic photo is taken by THOU :D

nice weather eh?

this is TANJONG beach. which suck. hahaa. i prefer siloso. ((:

ARTISTIC PHOTO AGAIN. :DDD

we were boarding the bus that brings us to sentosa. guess how much it cost? $3 bucks !

VAIN ASS:DD

charm's hair look ridiculously longgg. while jace just look. SPASTIC. -.-

we ate at... SUBWAY XD

charmains SUPER BULKY BAG 0.0

are they called sex bands? -.-

TA DAH. that's all. ((:

DAMNMIT IM PISSED.

2006-04-20T19:24:00.000-07:00

okay.
i feel all sucky nowadays.
why i hear you say?
cause i well, i guess CWN will never be the same again.
owells.
i am sad.
if you guys really think, what if the other party dies tml.
and you never got to say how sorry you were or how much you love one another.
its obvious that you guys still care for another.
but, why must you guys hide it?
PRIDE HUH.
whatver.
i hate it.
no matter what, i still love all of you.
YES.
I STILL LOVE YOU SUZANNA.
I STILL LOVE YOU CHARMAINE.
I STILL LOVE YOU JACELYN.
i am not gonna side anybody.
i want to be together again.

has our friendship really sunk to the bottom of the sea
and that it can never be recovered ever again?

LOLS.

2006-04-17T03:36:00.000-07:00

OKAY FINE.
I WILL UPDATE.
TAAA DAHH.
UPDATE LAIO :D

HE IS NEVER COMING BACK.

2006-04-06T05:55:00.000-07:00

i had my home econs practical today.
my cookies can match famous amos okay (:
my cheesy cupcake ahh -.-
i donno what happen also.
charmaine's popiah was not bad too (:
taqinahs agar-agar?
i also dunno.
freak. i really wanted to try them so badly.
whatever la.
i can make them myselves next time ma (:
hahaha. anyways,
i read emelia's post.
think about him again.
thinking about the time we had bakuteh together.
the next free days he is gone.
wondering why i didnt cherish him.
couldnt stop crying.
knowing that he is with God.
but i still miss him soo much.
God, take all this hurts away.

NOTHING MUCH LA.

2006-03-30T07:02:00.000-08:00

had maths, lit and chinese CA today.
man. maths was freaking tough.
I PRAY I DIDNT FLUNK IT.
i told mumma about the story of the "one-eyed" mum.
i told her halfway and i started to cry.
how lame is that? like..
you havent even finish the story and you cry first.
that is as bad as charmaine's "laugh at your own joke even before you finish the joke."
haha.
lols. i am so tired.
and man, i'm sick too. i can feel it.
a fever coming up on me.
GREAT.
nothing to say already.
okay. maybe except that the fact that.
my sister, weiyi, has officially become a pai ka.
pai shi di yi sheng and ka shi di yi sheng.
haha. pai ka = handicap. hahaha.
man. who needs hug? if you need hugs, can order from me (((:
HURHUR.
BYE PEEPS :D

MUMMA's LOVE.

2006-03-29T06:07:00.000-08:00

My mom only had one eye.

I hated her... she was such an embarrassment...

She cooked for students & teachers...to support the family.

There was one occasion during elementary school and my mom came.

I was so embarrassed. How could she do this to me?

I threw her a hateful look and ran out.

The next day at school...

"Your mom only has one eye?!?!"...eeeee said a friend.

I wished my mom would just disappear from this world.

So I said to my mom, "Mom... Why don't you have the other eye?!

If you're only going to make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?!!!"

My mom did not respond...

I guess I felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to think that I had

said what I'd wanted to say all this time...

Maybe it was! because my mom hadn't punished me,

but I didn't think that I had hurt her feelings very badly.

That night...

I woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water.

My mom was crying there, so quietly,

as if she was afraid that she might wake me.

I took a look at her, and then turned away.

Because of the thing I had said to her earlier,

there was something pinching at me in the corner of my heart.

Even so, I hated my mother who was crying out of her one eye.

So I told myself that I would grow up and become successful.

Then I studied real hard.

I left my mother and went to Singapore to study.

Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own.

Then I had kids, too...

Now I'm living happily as a successful man.

I like it here because it's a place that doesn't remind me of my mom.

This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when...

What?! Who's this?!

It was my mother...Still with her one eye.

I felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me.

Even my children ran away, scared of my mom's eye.

And I asked her, "Who are you?!" "I don't know you!!!"

as if trying to make that real.

I screamed at her, "How dare you come to my house

and scare my children!!"

GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"

And to this, my mother quietly answered,

"Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address,"

and she disappeared out of sight.

Thank goodness...

She doesn't recognize me. I was quite relieved.

I told myself that I wasn't going to care,

Or think about this for the rest of my life.

Then a wave of relief came upon me...

One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house in

Singapore.

So, lying to my wife that I was going on a business trip, I went.

After the reunion, I went down to the old shack,

that I used to call a house... Just out of curiosity

There, I found my mother fallen on the cold ground.

But I did not shed a single tear.

She had a piece of paper in her hand....It was a letter to me.

"My son...

I think my life has been long enough now...

And... I wont visit Singapore anymore...

But would it be too much to ask if I wanted you

to come visit me once in a while? I miss you so much..

And I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion.

But I decided not to go to the school.

For you......And.....

I'm sorry that I only have one eye, and I was an embarrassment for you.

You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident,

and lost your eye.

As a mom, I couldn't stand watching you

having to grow up with only one eye...

So I gave you mine...

I was so proud of my son that was seeing a whole

new world for me, in my place, with that eye.

I was never upset at you for anything you did..

The couple times that you were angry with me..

I thought to myself, 'It's because he loves me..'

My son... Oh, my son... "

_________________________________________________________________

great. this is freaking touching. and obviously i cried. its so touching la. can you possibly be so inhuman as in to not cry. nowadays, i often break down cause of all the pressure and stuff. mumma keep pressurising me. i guess all she wanted was the best from me. sorry mumma. i'll try my best. you know your parents would do anything just to take the pain and everything for you.so cherish your parents okay. even if you think they are really unreasonable and all. just think about it.

ALLTHEY WANTED WAS THE BEST FOR YOU.

MUST BLOG.

2006-03-22T18:41:00.000-08:00

okay. fine. i give in la.
I BLOGGGGGGG.
hahaha.
in school now. argh. got back my progress report.
SUCKS LA. gotta buck up. study hard.
ME -> STUPIDEST OF CWN.
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH`
so sad )):
owells. really need to start studying. i also screwed up that SMALL test that PANGtuality gave.
WHAT THE HELL.
man.

NOTE TO SELF: stupid freak LIN WEIHUI. can you please friggin start studying. SLACKER. you dun even study for test. where happen to the "I will study hard and glorify God." thingy? man. use you brain. God gave you brains to study. not to leave it there to rot right. STUDY LA PIG.

man. i am fierce to myself. okay. i'm lame. im talking to myself? WEIRDD.
anyways. PIGS ARE CUTE.
okay. CN wanna leave liao.
GOTTA LEAVE ! bye ! ((:

PS: i was going out with CN and we were at the bugis arcade. and there was these guys. -.- hahaha. BLACK SHIRT -> CUTE :D
((((x

THE SEARCH OF THE LOST SAUSAGE MUFFIN.

2006-03-16T03:33:00.000-08:00

investigating on e mysterious lost of my sausage egg muffin. who do you think took it?

okay. my sausage egg muffin aint here ! )):

hmmm. this is fish fillet ! not my muffin )):

oh. so thiam siang is the one who took it. argh.stupid pig. steal my egg muffin.BASH YOU UP THEN YOU KNOW.

YAY. perfect once again ((:

WOW. ALEX's FOOD. he sure has a BEEEEEG appetite.

THATS ALL FOR NOW (:

HAPPY !

2006-03-10T05:10:00.001-08:00

TOGETHER FOREVER AGAIN !
FRIENDS FOREVER.
THIS DAY.
WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN !
AHHHH !
HAPPINESS !

THREE IS A CROWD.

2006-03-09T05:28:00.000-08:00

today sucks.
okay. mayb amazing race was fun.but i guess i still kinda sad.

sigh. mayb i made the wrong choice coming to tkg.
screwing up people's friendships.
sorry that i landed in 2e9.

i am really sorry.
i truly am. you know something, even if you dislike me, or hate me.
you will always be one of the greatest friend i have ever had.
it had never came across my head that, i am hurting you.
sorry for stealing.
i'll try to stop hanging out with them.
really. cause i really want you to be happy.
as i said.
you sad, i sad. you happy, i happy.
remember the chopsticks?
when one is alone, like now.
you will feel frustrated and sad.
thats me and you now.
so, i really want you to be happy. really.
sorry for hurting you so much.
no matter what, you will be my friend forever.
and dun worry.
i dun blame. thats natural. i would probably be much worse if i were you.

well. i guess thats all? yeah.
anywyas bye.

IN SCHOOL NOW.

2006-03-07T23:47:00.000-08:00

today is wednesday (:
haha. no training ! WHOOTS.
in the computer lab now with charmaine and suzanna.
nothing to do.
so BLOG LOR.
haha. anyways, next week is pilot pen :D
i get to see noriko and cherie ! (:
haha. and also, there is class bonding next week.
might not b able to make it due to competition )):
but owells.
nothing much to say leh.
EXCEPT THAT.
erm.
MDM RAUDAH, MRS PANG, MDM SEAH AND MRS WILLIAM.. SUCKS.
AND THAT.
MRS TAUFIQ AND MDM AZIAN ROCK.
okay. thats all. buhbye (:

THANK YOU JESUS.

2006-03-05T03:40:00.001-08:00

You laid aside Your majesty,
gave up everything for me.
Suffered at the hands of those You had created.
You took away my guilt and shame,
When You died and rose again.
Now today You reign,
And heaven and earth exalt You.

I really want to worship You my Lord,
You have won my heart and I am Yours.
Forever and ever, I will love You.
You are the only one who died for me,
Gave Your life to set me free.
So I lift my voice to You in adoration.

Jesus, thank you for dying for me. Sorry for falling from You. Sorry for compromising to the devil. I will be ready now. If the devil is going to come and attack me, let him come. I know i will not be defeated because Your blood and mercy is over me. Now, I surrender myself to You Lord. You paid the price for me at calvary. And I will pay the price for Your glory. I will go all out for You and You alone. God You reign over all worldly things. I love you Jesus.

Holy trinity - God, Jesus, Holy Spirit.

PMS-ER.

2006-03-02T05:53:00.000-08:00

okay.
i am in a bad mood because i ran like shit today.
only 800m and i wanna vomit already??
nearly fainted too. so shit la.
only 3 months never run wad.
WATEVER.
anyways. huang !
thanks for helping me throw my vomit away -.-
haha. thanks la.
sorry 2e9.
i thought i could do better.
sorry if i let you guys down. )):

updating also.
i am partnering jingying for wee kim wee and cheers competition.
its gonna b weird -.-
haha. but we will get use to it wan la.
haha.
I WANNA TRY PARTNERING CHELSEA -.-
hahah.
okay. thanks all. buhbye. (:

-JACE.
takkaire of yourself. cheer up yeah? love you JACE ! darlings for ever? ((:

TKBADDY IS WHY.

2006-02-24T04:45:00.000-08:00

after getting the prize today.
i have decided i really dun wanna quit badminton anymore.
i guess i really love tk baddy.
i wanna train hard for them. yes.
they make me feel like family.
YESYES. every single one of you rock.
i love everyone single one of you.
i guess i might start being passionate about badminton again.
well. TKBADDY JIAYOU !
we can do it. lets show other school wad WE ARE MADE OF.
YEAH !

HATE ME, LOVE ME. I DUN CARE.

2006-02-23T06:40:00.000-08:00

well. some people told me that SOME people don't like me cause i am bitchy.
but i cant help it.
I AM MYSELF. AND I WONT CHANGE FOR ANYONE.
okay. i can try to change to be a better person.
but can you NOT be so crude.
BITCHY. STUPID. ACT CUTE. IMMATURE.
whatever.
i am sorry if i am THAT kind of people.
i will change alright. i will try.
you think i dont wanna b a better person?
of course i do. i just dun realize that i am like that myself.
i think that all this impressions of me are just the past.
i dun care. i BELIEVE i have changed.
i DUN think i am bitchy. i DUN act cute.
i am sorry if i am immature.
but i cant help it if i dun grow up faster OKAY.
even if you guys dun like me being like that, there are people who like me the way i am.
for example.
YINRONG. SUZANNA. CHARMAINE. DAPHNE. DAVID. HUANG. AND LOTS MORE.
i am sorry if i have offended you.
i am truly sorry. just tell me that i need to change.
dont you know it hurts alot wen you guys say things like that.
but if people call you a "BITCHY BITCH" or a "BLOODY BASTARD".
you cant base it on first impressions.
mayb you dun even know them close enough to realize who they really are.
why cant you give people a chance.

LOVE ME, HATE ME.
I CANT HELP IT.
I AM MYSELF.
NO ONE CAN CHANGE ME.
ESPECIALLY NOT YOU.

SWOLLEN EYES.

2006-02-23T04:02:00.000-08:00

my right eye is swollen.
dunno wad happen.
I THINK I AM GONNGA HAVE ANOTHER INJECTION AGAIN -.-

FREAK MDM SEAH.

2006-02-22T17:57:00.000-08:00

wad the hell la can.
we just put paper on our hair wad.
she say wad.
"LATER YOUR MUMMY OR GRANDMA SEE, WAD WILL THEY SAY?"
the way she say like as if they will insult me.
they will probably laugh la -.-
WHATEVER LORH -.-

haha.
recently, i think i am getting stupider.
and also, i am also starting to dislike lots of people.
i feel so bad.
then also. i at home nothing to do also dun wan to study.
LIKE ARGGHHH.
I WANNA STUDY LA !
i wanna be a good girl who A1s.
WAHHHHH`
that is like so hard.
mumma is going to get me a membership thingy.
WAHAHAHA.
till then, i will still be stupid :/
hahaha.

BUHBYE DEARS ! I LOVE YOU PEEPS !

CHARMAINE'S BDAE.

2006-02-21T04:13:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHARMAINE ! ((:
charmaine ! you are one year older already ! enjoy your 14th year on EARTH. ((:
i love you DEAR ((x

MAN. I AM BORED.
TALKING TO MY FRIEND NOW -.-
HAHAHA.
SIAN.

2006-02-19T20:30:00.000-08:00

FCUK LA.
SO FRIGGIN' STRESS LA.
YESTERDAY. TALKED TO NANA ON MSN.
FOUND OUT THERE WAS LIT CA TODAY.
LIKE WAD THE HELL?
I DIDNT KNOW -.-
MATHS HW?
HAVENT FINISH.
MAN.
EVERYTHING I HAVENT DONE.
JUST KILL ME.

DAMN. I HATE STUDYING.

PERFECT LOVE STORIES.

2006-02-18T05:11:00.000-08:00

oh man.
this is friggin' shit.
i wish i would just grow up older.
all this dumb stories with perfect endings about love suck.
but i like to watch and read them.
WHY?
because they are romantic. DUH.
WAHHHH'
i want my prince charming NOW.
i am being lame. LOLS.
LOVE STORIES JUST MAKE ME SO JEALOUS.

SIDE EFFECTS OF A GIRLS' SCHOOL?

V. DAY.

2006-02-14T05:51:00.000-08:00

DAMN SHIT. WHY CANT I UPLOAD THE PHOTOS.
FRIGGIN SHIT LA.

THE TRUE MEANING OF FRIENDSHIP.

2006-02-11T00:58:00.000-08:00

eversince coming to tkgs, i realized the true meaining of the word.

FRIENDSHIP.

it means not backstabbing each other.
it means treating one another as family.
it means loving one another.
it means no one gets left out.
it means taking care of one another.
it means much more than this.

I FEEL SO LUCKY TO HAVE FRIENDS.

SUZANNA. CHARMAINE. GINA. HUANG. DAPHNE.

thank you for teaching me the true meaning of friendship.

TRIBUTE (:

2006-02-09T06:06:00.000-08:00

YES YES.
i am writing a tribute.. AGAIN.
what to do. i simply love my girlfriends (:

SUZANNA.
YO GIRL :D hahaha. this one's for you ((x FIRSTLY. I LOVE YOU DEAR ! you are one of the greatest friend i ever had okay (: sorry for the times i made you angry -.- like about one part of your face that time. i wont talk about that anymore okay ((: and yes. i shall repeat what i wrote in the letter. such a friendly girl eh? so pretty ((: yes. i mean it okay ! ((x and also. you are ambitious ! JIA YOU AND YOU CAN DO IT ! (: haha. i think i am so sweet to you ((x i am waiting for valentines' eh !? haha. you shall be surprised (: THANKS FOR BEING THERE FOR ME WHEN I AM SAD (: anyways, i dont think i can be sad wen i am aropund you and charm -.- haha. and also giving me advice. ALWAYS TRYING TO MAKE ME NOT FEEL BAD. oh man you do rock ((: how did we become friends ? MRS WILLIAM ! she didnt come for music class ! and thats where our friendship really started ! talking about A to D ! and stuff. hahaha. lols. RATHER FUN EH ? ((x THANK YOU MRS WILLAIM ! -.- anyways, thanks for being the greatest friend you could b (: FRIENDS FOREVER (:
i am glad i came to 2e9 ((:

CHARMAINE.
HEY GIRLIE (: woohoo. FIRST THING. thanks for always lending me money wen i forgot to bring money to school ((: so skinny ((x you and your lame jokes plus your lousy sense of humour. everything also laugh. sometimes, i wonder what are you laughing at -.- CANT WAIT FOR VALENTINE'S DAY ! we are gonna have a fabulous time ((: you are so wonderful ((x hahaa. always ensuring that nobody gets left out, sharing things with everyone and also, always lending me your ruler, correction tape... BLAH BLAH. hahaa. ANOTHER ONE OF MY GREATEST FRIEND ((: and yes ! your birthday is coming soon dear ! wahahaha. suzanna and i have a GREAT pressie for you. you are gonna get so touched ! PROVES OUR SINCERITY eh?? remember the first time i saw you? you went like' " HI ! " and i was like.. " hi. " lols. times flies ! and now we are great friends (: and yes. when you let down your hair, you look so MATURE ! omgawd. i wanna hair hair like YOURS ! ((x I LOVE YOU WO-MAN ! FRIENDS FOR LIFE (:
i am glad i came to 2e9 ((:

GINA.
HELLO BABE (x haha. i know you are shock. I STILL LOVE YOU EVEN THOUGH YOU ALWAYS BULLY ME, TEASE ME AND STUFF. wahhahahahhahaa. lols. you CLAIM to be a BABE, PRINCESS AND A WOG (: WOMAN OF GOD (x well,well. PERHAPS you are la. hahaha. anyway, thanks for caring bout me lots. and wahahahha ! i know how to play guitar ! thanks for trying to share everything you could (: rawkk on girl. ANOTHER ONE OF MY GREATEST FRIEND EHH ((x rain or shine, you are always there ! most of the time,trying to accomdate to my needs. not really la. BUT IN A WAY, YES :D we must find a time to go roller blading together ONE DAY okay ? i wanna roller blade !! WHEE HEE. oh yes. AND you are absolutely positively MAD about ben and jerry's. haha. CHUNKY MONKEY is so totally ~~not~~ nice. hahaha. glad that i really became friends with you all. THANKS (: I LOVE YOU BABE (: FRIENDS ALWAYS (:
i am glad i came to 2e9 ((:

CHARMAINA / GINA / SUZANNA

FRIENDS FOR LIFE !

I LOVE YOU DEARS ! (:

best friends don't tell each other they are best friends. they just know it.

RANDOM DAY.

2006-02-08T01:18:00.000-08:00

today, planned to go out with suzanna. but she couldnt go out.
then wanted to go with gina. but.. too rushy. SORRY GINA !
stayed in school to watch badminton. but left to go parkway with tessa. rather fun (:
here are the pics (:

tessa advertising eh? -.-

tessa paying for her knee guard.

GINA ! i do not have multiple eyelid.

CUSHIONS (:

BABE LOVE (:

potential twitish stuff? -.-

PICTURES (:

2006-02-07T05:23:00.000-08:00

GINA is scratching her head -.-

ATTENTIVE 2e9. ((x

SIAN is the word for them ((:

CHARM'sletter to me ((:

during class. CHARM was acting she didnt know i was taking them -.-

ARTISTIC NANA. WOW.

CHARM , ME , NANA. RAWKKERS OF THE UNIVERSE ((x

i am so tired.

2006-01-23T01:09:00.000-08:00

i am feeling so depressed and sad now.
i have no idea why.

i know the meaning of my life.
thats to live for God and do wad he wants me to do.

everyone expects me to do this and that.
i am trying so hard that i am not even living my own life anymore.
i want the old cheerful self back.
i dun feel like myself anymore.
i feel like a shadow.
i dunno even know who i am now.

i need a break.
i wish i can just live my own life.

i wish people would just stop expecting such good grades.
good badminton or stuff like that.
yes. i wanna study hard. but i wanna do my own things too.
i dun wanna cry just cause i just passed my test.
i wonder why i cried.
because i hadnt lived up my parents expectations?
i am trying so hard.
i really am. why cant anyone understand me?

why do people always object to things that really make me happy.
i wanna baptise.
why must they object?
i wanna watch some comedy.
you wan me to study?
i wanna read some books.
you dun wanna buy for me?

i dun understand. i really need a break.
i have been trying so hard to live up to people's expectations that.
i really cant find myself anymore.

nobody hears the cries at night.
God. Help me please.
i feel so broken.
i wish i can be as carefree as i was during primary school.
i need love and concern from you guys.
not just God.

tears are falling from my cheeks as i type this.
i wonder why.
maybe its because..
i feel so broken up and stressed and sad that.
i am just not myself anymore.

I AM BLOGGING FINALLY.

2006-01-22T20:24:00.000-08:00

after like.. so long, i finally decided to blog again. haha.
i have like totally nothing to say.
i think that emelia and christel is so lucky and blessed.

christel can get like.. almost anything she wants.
she seems almost perfect.
born into a christian family. get a new phone.
man. she just gets anything she wants.

as for emelia.
she gets all the books she wants.
as in.. her mum gets her the book she wants.
she has an mp3. a nice phone.

as for me?
nothing. mumma dun like to buy stuff for me.
books? i buy myself. phone? lousy. and i have to buy it myself soon.
mp3? daddy said he wanna buy. but.. i wonder where it is now.

owells. i guess some people arent as lucky as the others.
buhbye. feeling super moodless and sad now.

well. at least i have God.

HE"S GONE.

2006-01-12T02:22:00.000-08:00

HE'S GONE.

and i accept it.

i still remember. hari raya. he passed away peacefully. but i still couldnt believe it.
his voice still rings ever so loudly in my ear. the picture comes into my mind. the times we shared flashed through my mind too.

some of you are wondering who i am pointing to?
i am talking my grandfather. my GONG GONG.

i didnt dare to post on the blog about him just because i am afraid that people will come and say, "oh my! i am so sorry. be strong okay?" i was just afraid that i will cry and break down. people might just think i am weakling. but now.. i am ever so sorry i thought that way. i am proud to say that my grandfather was strong. yes. strong. even at the point of death. he was still cracking jokes when he was terribly weak.

the next day, i went to school. i was sad. but thanks to nana and charm, i didnt think much about it. i thought i was over it. i thought i was fine. but no. later that day, i went to the wake. i looked at him. he looked happy. i was okay. but after looking at him after a period of time, i realized how much i missed him. i admit i didnt treasure the times we gad to together. but i am glad the picture is still there with me. the only thing i regretted not doing was not hugging him and telling him that i love him.

well. here goes. GONG GONG, I LOVE YOU. AND I ALWAYS WILL. I HOPE THAT YOU ARE REALLY HAPPY UP THERE WITH GOD. JUST DONT EVER FORGET THAT SOMEONE IS MISSING YOU EVERY MINUTE EVERYDAY. THATS ME GONGGONG.

well. i am glad i am done. i am not sad anymore. i know that he isnt suffering anymore. i am gonna do my best in life because i know that he is up that watching me.

FRIENDS IN SCHOOL.

2006-01-08T18:42:00.000-08:00

YO :D
I AM IN SCHOOL NOW.
CAN GO MSN MESSENGER. FRIENDSTER. BLOG.
HOW COOL IS THAT (:

OH MAN. I MISS THEM.
THEM -> AUDREY. NORIKO. AMANDA. CHERIE. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE LA.

OWELLS. OKAY. BUHBYE (:

JUST WANNA REALLY SEE THEM AGAIN. AND TELL THEM.
THANKS FOR BEING MY FRIENDS AGAIN. (:
TO HUG THEM AND TELL THEM I LOVE THEM :D
WELL. FRIENDS FOREVER. :D

GINA :D NANA :D CHARMAINA :D

2006-01-06T18:57:00.000-08:00

athswahahaha. i put charmaine as charmaina nah so that it rhymes. cool rite ((x
yesterday's school was way FUN FUN FUN :D
first period was like. PE. -.- have to take height and weight ! i dun wan lorh. just wanted to take my height! 163 cm! wheee. but. have to take weight. argh. but i will not reveal it. so sad la.
ANYWAY ! I FOUND OUT ME AND NANA HAS ALOT OF COMMON ! WHOOT !

WeiHui and I have alot of stuff in common!
Like.. She got some long talk from Sir, she's really strong and can lob a shuttle very far like me and don't bring it down instead, both of us want to go slimming when we grow older (shh!), we seriously want to lose alot of weight, we want to learn the guitar, we both have almost the same height and almost the same weight, we both have abit similar hairstyles, Tessa says we look almost the same, and her parents expect her to be pro in alot of stuff!
Just like mine.

adapted from NANA's blog :D

yeahh. i AGREE. i copied from her blog so i neednt type so much. hahaha. oh yes. we were like mad for PE la. after realizing our weight, we went to do sit ups like mad people. hahaha. then after that, we had to run one round the school wad. so while we run we did so many stupid moves. ahahaha.

NEXT WAS MUSIC.

i was soooooo happy to get aquainted with my FAVOURITE teacher.
MY FAVOURITE MRS WILLIAM (:
ooh. so sad. she didnt come. i shall cry !!! WAHAHAHHAHAHAA. thats sounds like laughter. hahaha. well.. nana and i went to sit at the back of the class there la. hahaa. then gina and charmaine joined us. next, SOMEONE said that China men with american accent was hot.
but eww no.
i was going to watch chronicles of narnia with mingmin that day. and i heard them saying..

"hey. have you watch king KAAAANG?"
"oh maaaa gosh. jessica albaa is sooo HUUUUT."

the last sentence is sensored. haha. then.. tadkinah came over. dunno how to spell her name. then i remembered something from her DIRTY joke book.
but the fact was.. it wasnt even funny. lols.
then, we got to the topic of A to D cups. yeahh. it might be the drinking kind of cups ((x
then. well they said thatcharmaine was FLAT -.- but. hey. thats so mean.
at least she has figure wad. she isnt flat. just that it isnt BEEEG. haha.
well. then it went to ARTS.
poor mdm seah. we were like. not even listening. but she just continue yakking about artists and blah blah. O.o hahaa. well. for english?
NO COMMENTS. just read NANA'S AND CHAR'S BLOG .__."

after that. well. went for training. then. never mind. bye.

SCHOOL STARTED :D

2006-01-04T00:28:00.000-08:00

hello again. i decided to take a break for a while. man. I AM SO STRESSED !
anyway, let me talk about yesterday first. ((:

YESTERDAY :D

well. reached super early. supposed to meet tessa.then she bring me to my class. yeah.
meeting at 7 am. woah. 7.20am still havent come. then i am like.forget it man. i will just bring my bag to assembly loh. well. the principal and EVERYBODY talked so long that my leg ached from sitting down okay ! it was like..from. 7.30am to 10am?? crossed-legged somemore. haha. i think i was shy yesterday. well. of course i felt that way la. my class everybody stare at me like as if i am a monster larh. argh. except for wan en. yeahh. she was like.. "you are emelia's cousin? i am wan en.hello!" then she was smiling brightly and erm. wanted to shake my hand -.- hahaha. well. she was my first friend in my class. ((: we met mrs taufiq and mrs william -.- i like mrs taufiq. she is nice (: but strict. reminds me of mrs chaim. hahaha. she crack jokes with you too. hahaha. mrs william. YUCK. not that i dun like her. she like a little bit psycho like that. hahaha. but.. i guess. she is quite nice and funny. that day, my first few friends were :
- Chloe
- Jia En
- Wan En
- Charmain
- Fu Hua
- NANA :D
- Shivani
- Serene

well. they had left an impression on me. so i think its them only. yeah. then had training. sprained my ankle! yay! so happy! happy my FOOT. argh.hurts like hell yesterday.but now, it is fine (: sir talked to me. dunno whether i wanna continue badminton until JC lehh. perhaps.

TODAY :D

not posting bout that that day.wahahaha. wanted to continue updating it today. but. owells.
I HAVE MUCH MORE THINGS TO POST ON TODAY ((x

ONE NEW YEAR .

2006-01-01T06:03:00.000-08:00

HELLO :D
its 2006 already. so fast ehh? yeah. decided to restart the blog AGAIN. -.- hahaha.

my new year resolutions are :

- no chocolates !
- no sweets !
- bring more people to Christ ! [Faith: AMEN]
- study VERY VERY hard !
- do my BEST in badminton !
- do QUIET TIME everyday ! try to do it in the morning !
- save at LEAST $10 every week !

i think thats all. yupp. if got anymore, i will add wan la. hahaha.
i am excited about school! excited bout the OUTREACH! i am gonna revive TKGS! yeahh!
christel came back already (: so happy. i missed my darling little PRINCESS SARAH. haha. she just came back from New Zealand. she bought roxy cap for me ((: how sweet of her rite. simply love her so much. wished she was my younger sister (: she is just so cute. haha. today she simply laughed at everything. not funny i also dunno why she laugh -.-
tml we going to street e. ((: wonder who i will be paired up with. YES YES. i am very excited (: mayb before that we going to go swimming! whee! go play with WATER!
anyway, weijing just CUT my fringe. i suppose it is quite okay la. at least my eyes dun hurt anymore mah. haha. well. i guess that is all.
BYE :D

I AM GONNA GET BAPTIZED. AND NOTHING IS GONNA STOP ME.